May 30th, 2016: Part II

What, exactly, is narcissism? I see there's such a thing has Narcissistic Personality Disorder; is that the result of some kind of wonky brain chemistry? Is it the result of some kind of conditioning? Is it nature or nurture?

 And raised in a freaking circus.I don't think I'm a narcissist, but I'm probably an egoist. I'm not conceited by I'm self-absorbed. Is that just me? Is it my brain? Is it the result of being superficially pumped up as a kid? Is it because of the success I had in one or two areas? (Namely performing, and just being pretty smart for a relatively uneducated person.)

Is narcissism a symptom or a flaw?

​ Do non-narcissists do this? Isn't it just a common, nasty diversion tool in any argument when someone wants to be on top? "Oh yeah? Well what about when you _______?"

​I'm trying to delve into narcissism and know what it is and isn't because I'm going to need to know the dragon if I intend to slay it. (Slay the effect it's had and is having on my life, not on the narcissist herself. To be clear.)

​Is my dad a narcissist too?  Nah. Probably not.  I think he's just a toxic existentialist. And an artist. And part Russian. And raised in a tightwire family in a freaking traveling circus.  He never had a prayer of turning out decent, let alone kind. And he should never, ever, ever have procreated. Not and stuck around.

A Child's Bedtime Story

By Michele

​Once upon a time..
​
A brilliant narcissist and an existentialist artist went to sea
in a beautiful pea green boat. Together, they landed on
he pristine Isle of Possibilities,
where they could do and create anything their hearts desired.

​Soon after, everyone else on the island died of exposure.

Only the narcissist noticed they were gone.

​The end.